| | So my brother recently decides, and this time I think it's final, that he's moving back in. As his younger sister, I grew up and learned the hard way that no matter what, I have to love him and forgive him. BUT, that doesn't mean I have to forget all his screw up in the past because inevitably, they still affect me today.
For instance, he barely graduated high school and never finished college. In fact, while my parents were GIVING him money to go to college because he couldn't earn a scholarship, he decided to take it and spend it on other things. You know, personal things like clothes, tuning up his car (which btw he had two cars at the time both of which my parents were paying), personal expensive products, going out, etc etc. And not only would he take the money my parents would give him for school but he would ASK for more money and say it was for school when in fact, if he were really using any of that money for school, he wouldn't even need! So he was then not only using my parents, but stealing from them. And till this day, I don't think they even know. That's just the least of it and what sorta is the story that ties in to the rest of this entry.
What hurts the most is he's not sorry about it. And what's even WORSE than that is, his younger siblings (my Kuya Andy, me, and my little sister, Christine) get the shorter end of the stick. Even though Kuya Andy has quite a few BIG mess ups in his life (way different from Kuya Edwin's) he still managed to move out and stay out (although I miss him), raise his child with his now fiance, at least almost finish college (he needs to get accepted into a program to graduate)- he still managed to accomplish more things than Kuya Ed although he is younger and has suffered much more obstacles. I'm not saying Kuya Andy is innocent and isn't part of how my little sister and I have to live, because he most definitely is. But all I'm saying is, at least he's turned his life around and doesn't think he's still 17.
Kuya Ed is 25 years old and all he's accomplished in life is learning how to cook very well. Which is awesome, if you ask me. But he never went to school for it and has no plans for it when clearly, he's found something he's good at and can DO something with it. But he decides not to. So what happens to him? He gets fired (I think it was on purpose), can't pay off his debt (which is like 10k+), can't find a decent job (and fools my parents thinking that being a promoter of night clubs is a big job. Only thing is, they don't know it's night clubs as he's only telling them that he's in promotions now. I'm surprised they haven't figured it out with all the lattttee nights and smelling like cigarettes and liqour and waking up past noon. Which they don't tolerate for the three of us, but it's okay for him of course), and decides now that he HAS to move back home because he'll never be able to make it on the streets in the real world. Ah, the plot of this whole entry is revealed!
So, now, today is his second night with us. And you know, I'm trying to be the bigger person because I'm known out of the four of us to be the mature one. And as I started getting into my teens, I also became the mediator who settled things in the family when it came time for the siblings to talk about the current events. But it's just so hard, you know? I'm living with this person who has the audacity to lie to his parents after they take him in, willingly of course. Which just blows my mind that they would even let him back in here because he'll never learn from his mistakes if my parents keep babying him.
Apart from his personality, which annoys me and I will not list because I'd be going off on a tangent, his presence returning back into the house brings awful memories back. Why? Well because they're all happening again.
-He uses all my products for my face and hair (that includes wash and shampoos/conditioners)
-He uses the blowdryer and LEAVES it out
-He assumes that he's STILL a guest in the house and liek always, never cleans up after himself (which one would think since we're doing him a favour and letting him stay with us, he'd change that...but he didn't)
-He uses my FRAGRANCES! My god, it's like he wants to smell like a woman (I know I've called him gay before, which I still swear by. But come on, if he doesn't want to be called one then don't make it so obvious)
-He doesn't help around the house and although he's already moved in, Kuya Andy had to drive over here for an hour to do something my dad asked him to do which Kuya Ed could have very well done himself.
-Because he knows he's not going to clean the bathroom, he leaves it a mess
-He takes VERY long showers. And I don't mind that except that the water bill always seems to rise when he comes for his visits. Now that he's staying here, imagine the new price!
-He falls asleep when EVERYTHING (lights, laptop/computer, tv, stereo/surround sound system) still on for hours
-He sees something he likes and takes it (like my stud earrings)
-He does the laundry and likes to think he's doing us a favor for including ours... but then when we tell him to dryer certain things that need to be hung dry (like my tiny shirts) he doesn't do it. So they get tinier. Which annoys the FUCK out of me
-He uses all the internet speed on his stupid myspace shit that takes forever to load
And that's just to name a few of why my 25 year old brother is a loser. Also, it is the reason why I have lost the majority of respect I have for him. He's supposed to be the eldest, and usually the eldest is the one to look up to and you are supposed to respect the most. I respect him as a person and I won't be rude to him on purpose. But, I don't respect him as a brother and I most definitely do not even think of him as anything more than someone I have to live with. Harsh, I know. I'm a bitch and being a horrible sister, I know. But in my perspective, I believe I have every right to be this way and I'm not just overreacting. It makes me laugh though, to hear him on the phone all day bragging and still having his 'friends' think he's some cool guy.
I don't know if I touched up on everything that I wanted to say about (only) this particular situation my family and I are now in. To make matters worse is my little sister and him always have and still do fight with each other. Of course, I play the middle guy... Just one more job for me. Although nothing big has happened yet, you can bet with this extended stay that there's going to be tension.
-SgMl
P.S. I read The Catcher and the Rye during my vacation back home in the PI before 9th grade and was so BLEH about the book. Even though I read the whole thing, I never saw what so many people saw in the book and why it was so big in popular culter. And although I'm not a avid reader of books (I have my moments where I decide to read books. it's like a certain time in the year. It must be something in the season haha) I decided to read it. Now we have to read it for AP English class and... I'm actually enjoying it. Heh.
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| | Posted 12/14/2008 11:00 PM - 88 Views - 8 eProps - 6 comments
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